I post this bag not because it is anything nice to look at, but because it is currently reflective of my life.
In recent months my foundation (which I thought solid) has been rocked a bit. Often times now I feel insecure, that I have nothing to offer and that I have taken big steps backward in my journey with the Lord. I feel like this bag, just beginning.
What I am being shown through much “undoing” of my life (besides a big root of pride) is that I had put my trust and security in many things other than the Lord.
Things like what I knew, and who I knew, and where I had come from. Only to find out that, I do not know much, all people fail and I have really not come very far.
I had forgotten God’s words that say Trust in Me – alone.
I was choosing the “easy road,” following people and resting in the past, instead of relying on my Lord Himself. It takes more faith to follow and trust in His way. A way that is not often smooth or predictable. But the peace and rest that comes… I am finding is worth the revealing of my heart to Him.
So I am thankful for the reminder that my journey with Him is not about a destination or the past. It’s about today and who or what I choose to trust in – and where I put my faith.
I am thankful to be reminded that even good things; knowledge, memorized verses, books read, and people in my life…can all interfere with the relationship that matters most.
I am thankful that God is faithful and if I keep my eyes on Him, He will show me when my trust and faith start wandering.
I am thankful for humble beginnings.
So, there is much work to be done on my bag before it is beautiful and useable, and there is much work for the Lord to do in my life. But I am thankful that He sees me as beautiful and useable today. That is how He sees each one of us, His handiwork, His beautiful creation, already finished.
Our only destination is heaven and our journey begins and ends each day – with His love, mercy, grace and forgiveness.